My lavender haze

Everything has its end, and life outruns all our finest predictions and sometimes our highest expectations. There is no guarantee I’ll be beside you when you reach my age. Nothing is guaranteed. That’s why I decided to dedicate a post to you that reminds you of your eldest sister and reveals a glimpse of my nuances, feelings, and wishes for you.

I agree with the content of this article and am affected by the intensity of these words: “Death steals everything except our stories,” wrote the poet Jim Harrison. Always remember Stephen Hopkins’ ingenious words: Where there’s life, there’s hope. When you’re my age, I hope you get the chance to discover most of your potential and pursue what drives you the most.

You’re a miracle and you came to us at the right time. Since you were born, you’ve given me so much strength and kept me on my feet to go forward in life. Your favorite color may change, but currently, you prefer purple-color above else 💜💛💜

From the moment you were a fertilized egg, remember that your twin elder sisters wished you’d become the best of us, as people wanted, our integrated ideal version. Observing you at this very moment, the universe heard our pleas and honored them for you. You’re being raised differently than we are, and you’re growing up in scenarios that differ. I’ll try my very best to grant you the better future I wish for you. Being born as the youngest daughter, you’ll have many blessings. Pearl Abraham wrote in her novel that having older sisters is a reward from heaven. What she wrote may be true: those who receive older sisters must be loved by God. Because you have two older sisters, you won’t be alone and helpless, and we’ll stand by you when you need us. I want to be a supportive elder sister, emotionally and financially, when you’re short on budget or someone with whom you can freely unravel the burdens pressing on your chest. But we believe you become an open-minded, quick-witted, and independent person with two backups by whom you can be inspired. We support you to discover your inner calling, the pursuits you enjoy doing intensely that provide a sufficient income for your needs, and your life path (which means bringing goodwill like joy and hope into the lives of others) earlier in your life.

I hope the future isn’t as horrible as we project, with food and water scarcity spurred on by pressing problems like climate change making life more bleak, hapless and challenging. Climate issues are severe and should be considered seriously, and actions should be taken everywhere in the nick of time. If things turn out to be less horrifying and experts may find a solution to save the world, remember you can achieve whatever you want, but most importantly, be a good person. You can be one of the specialists or scientists in biotechnology or biochemistry who develop safe and reliable food sources, converting ocean water as drinkable, or an artist, athlete, dancer, writer, or anything else. I want to wrap up this post with a few sage phrases from a film worth watching many times if it’s screening while I’m rolling on TV channels.

You’ll hardly remember the time you spent in the so-called two capitals of Eastern Europe, Budapest and Prague. One day, if the universe blesses all of us, Mom, Dad, and your twin sisters will all join your tertiary graduation ceremony. People say I look like Mom, and you resemble me, but you’re my upgraded mini-me, so you’ll be much prettier than me.

“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.”

“Some people were born to sit by a river. Some get struck by lightning. Some have an ear for music. Some are artists. Some swim. Some know buttons. Some know Shakespeare. Some are mothers. And some people — dance.”

“Our lives are defined by opportunities, even the ones we miss. You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went, you can curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go.”

PS: You’re my sun, a miracle in my life, someone always in my mind, and I aim to be the sister I promised to become for myself and wanted to have. From the bottom of my heart, no matter who you become in the future, I’ll always love you.💜 When you’re my age, I’ll be 44, not that old, and maybe mom and dad’ will see you married. I hope you’ll be happier and more fulfilled than I was at this age.

Your loving sister,

Sanaa